Ideas for the next poem.... Who knows. Not good yet but will keep me working.
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My wish... let me have a few. dammit everyone else gets one...i know sometimes wishes are better unfulfilled you know the one about my high school sweetheart and forever... yeah I am sure my life would be over if that wish had come true
Having you in my life was all i could imagine. Sitting on my dock surrounded by horseshoe lily pads and empty promises
iIlooked into your eyes shaded by RayBan in infidelity “forever is a work tattooed on your misguided soul... if you even have one... obviously the spelling is all wrong. it meant you and me together until the sunsets on our memories.
You and me on that dock I was an immature girl of 17 waiting at the bus stop of hopes and happiness I looked at you sideways in the rays. Your permanence danced upon the waters it would be so easy to believe in your dreams . Hop on board and let it take me to the place where you and I thought we need to be.
Forever - it was the first time i really thought it might happen - it all started in the reflection of those ray bans. at that moment i should have only trusted my reflection seeing the signs... that really no matter who is standing there all i will see and trust in will be me. they say you are your very own friend but you are also the one who will let you down the most Shaded clouded and pressed each to the shielded place in my mind that still believed all your fantasies. i wasn’t listening to the darkened girl looking back, a reflection on your naive hope
Did you really believe tales you spun with you spool of slick jock-like-existence
You lived in a world where you were worshipped. I shouldn’t blame you . They all wanted to be with you, be a part of you... moth to the flame. The only problem is that you were burning yourself. You worked it. You believed it and you gambled it. Understand years later when my forever started to fade the cracked neon light revealed the whit glimmer of bright fighting other way out through the painted mask of Blinking blues and pinks “forever”
We left the save predictability of high school tried out forever, ever after. The reality of who you were or who you were not was revealed without the curtain of GOD. I watched it become truth to you. Desperation hit. You no longer wore the shaded of deception - you no longer saw what you thought others saw the fight to be the best in your eyes tarred you, scarred you - your perception of forever changed to. How could you believe it when you no longer believe the person you were. Years later... As i lay on that dock stomach to the hard wet wood, arms stretched, fingertips playing amongst the water lilies....I realized what forever can be. ME the dreams of forever the wishes of permanence ... lay in my existence. Lay in my control Finally I understood what others closest to me saw. There was a moment to mourn my innocence. But just a moment as quick as that moth burns too close to the flame. My eyes lifted to the new sunrise the new flower budding on the lily. The new forever the new opportunity for the possibilities forever holds for all of us rests upon that girls begging someone else for my life.... the reflection is who i need to hold on to. the reflection shows me a strong girl finally seeing the woman I will be... with me. Forever